i'm sad. :'(

i was merely telling my dad that i want a math tuition
and he said that he'll be my tutor...
,,,and everytime he becomes my tutor, i dont have the right attitude for a teacher to a student
i will take it as father to daughter,
and i wont take it seriously

and just cause of that
my dad link it to my attitude
saying that i am not thinking far ,, thinking that money is like printed straightaway.
he said that i'm wasting alot of money for outside tuition..yeah outside tuition...
but i just cannot take his teaching, its torturous,
he criticize me, trying to find bad points in me everytime, in every mistakes that i made
just cause i'm careless

and now he links it to sec 4 o levels,
saying that he dont want to crack his brain to solve the sums at that time...
just cause i dont want tuition, plus, i didnt even said that i dont want to have tuition
and he said he wants me to aim for business course
which is the best course to him
and he said that i'll be a failure if i got 20 plus
it sucks man the way he say it
and he said,. if you cant get in business course then theres no where else for you to go
unless you wanna go for your stupid art luh, [I WAS BADLY HURT BY HIS WORDS. ART IS MY PASSION DAMMIT, and yeah i broke in to tears immediately] ,, HE'S CONTROLLING MY LIFE., I KNOW HE WANTS ME TO HAVE A BRIGHT FUTURE, EARN MUCH MONEY LIVE WELL. BUT,, the life he wants me to live is kinda dead,, as in NOT AMBITIOUS :(

dammit man. I'M SO STRESSED ABOUT
SO MANY STUFFS
DANG



and i had just lost something i loved
MY CRYSTAL BOTTLE DAMMIT
you know the science chemistry experiment...crystalization
i put it all in a small bottle
and now ITS LOST
I PLACED IT ON MY SPEAKERS
AND EVERYDAY I SEE IT SMILING AT ME
now its gone
dammit
dammit dammit!!!
cause of that i cried


ARGHHH

DAMMIT SIAAAA
GRRR

I NEED TO RELIEVE STRESSS DANG
MY EYES ARE BURNING ROAR.