God, please help me.

got back my results today,i dont think i can get in double science and i know nothing can save me.

and most importantly ,, i dont want to go aesthetics, i feel so useless if i go there. its the same as if life itself has perished. man..its my mathematics.. mye + eoy = 50 plus.

and the requirement for double science

1-english pass.

2-65% science

3-65% mathematics..

i got point 1. point 2. point 3 fucking fail it.

and my chinese isnt better. ==..

43/100 . i failed my paper 2.

and it sucks.

sigh

my heart was like crushing down and getting heavier by the moment that i thought i couldnt breathe as in literally! they just had to give mathematics first.

man,, the moment i reached home, i grabbed all my files and mye paper to calculate...

and seriously.. cmi..

and slept till now.. 6 hours ..

i dont trust myself..