Indifferent. I don't like that.

Wanna go out so badly.. saw some photos of others on facebook and i'm all green, not that i'm the hulk ==; ah. :\ after Os..i wanna work so hard and get my own things..i realized my parents haven't bought me anything much for the whole of sec3-4 == cause they're all so 'savy'.. and because of what they said , "If you save up, we'll go to Australia/NZ/US after your Os!" And i was really excited for it cause its been so long since we went to cold countries..i miss US so much cause we're always going to Asian countries.. Last month, my mother told me that we'll be going to Korea because she knew that i was a fan of kpop. How sweet of her. Still, i changed the plans cause i know that my family prefer a more westernized country so i chose Aussie. And guess what, my mother decline me and suggested NZ! (The reason she gave was "We went there so many times!" :( But i wanna go there so badly!! T~T) Ah but NZ is okay. Just....mountains. And mountains.. and mountains. :| Haha :) However..i found out that we're not going anywhere close to NZ yesterday. .. We're going back to Phuket cause of the stupid resort that my sister liked which turned me down and so furious. So much for saving hundreds. Disappointment. Haha. I think there's something wrong with me these days. I don't really care about anything around me anymore especially the problems that troubled me in school because i know things won't change and i don't want to waste my breath on it so yeah..i'll just live what life gives me. Haha. Sigh x.x what my father did last december was for my future but it pains me to see that i've changed to become somebody i'm not. Cause with so much restrictions, people see me different. in a negative way. And it's kinda sad that they throw wrong comments which just shows that they don't understand you anymore. =(

Right. My dream today was weird. Okay. It has always been weird. Well the gist of the dream was about me and a few friends running away from cops in a big airport with super long escalators that curls around pillars and go upside down. And at the end, all my friends had to die because i broke a deal with somebody..and my brother was in there. He was the last to die. Well, i watched him die cause i said no. :\