Really hating myself..

Hey guys. I won't be blogging as much as i do so before. Cause my mother has officially locked my one and only alternative source of communication : my sister's laptop. And i'm doomed. My sms has once again exceeded but for a different reason this time, i had to send long text messages to the band members. Its really hard for me.
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Darn..i've influenced the people around me to feeling depressed and moody too.
Sorry weiyan =( I'm just tired.. I know you feel the same somehow. Unabling to finish work due to band. And having to hand up all math chapters on time. And the number of essays that we owed. And the number of SDLs that we couldn't finish. And the comprehension from before Common test. And the constant nagging from my mother for not completing her chinese assessments.
Hahaha. Screw life yeah.

This message's for you. There's a reason why i've stopped talking to you. I was.. mad at what you've said about some things..It just .. shows how much you didn't understand me after so many years. Same goes for me. I didn't understand you most of the time...well, all of the time, because its so hard to 'read' you, moreover, with the kind of character and negative feelings all compressed inside that little body, i am far from that stage..because i've been pampered for so long. And things definitely worked better for me than to you.. i'm sorry for not being there for you. With all these restrictions at home, i really had no choice..its not what you think of staying 'low profile' or avoiding you.. hahaha. Talked to you on the night of the 'supermoon' cause i thought i should forgive and forget whatever mistakes we've made and start anew. Tho it seems like we made this day special for ourselves differently. But its okay, :) you've made your decision, i've made mine. we both know the outcome so i would say Its for the better.